I’ve been thinking about time a lot lately. I keep wishing for more of it (or the ability to not sleep). It seems like there is never enough time in a day to do both what you need to and want to do.
I’ve been feeling torn. I have so many balls in the air right now, more than usual. I don’t feel like I can properly keep the juggling act going much longer. But I’m afraid to stop trying. I do know I can’t continue to go on the way I have been. The stress level has been way too high. I’ve not been happy, and I haven’t been fun to be around either.
I was chatting with my friend, the amazing and talented Meredith Schorr, about my feelings last week. The conversation turned to working on a day off. This is something I have done since technology allowed. And something I planned to do over the holidays. The problem with staying connected is you never fully accomplish what you need to and you never fully enjoy your day. But more important you never feel like you had a break. You return to work, just as stressed and cranky as you were when you left.
Meredith told me something her dear friend and boss once told her… “Problems will be there whether you there to see them or not so you might as well enjoy your free time while you get it.”
Her words really hit home with me. The sentiment was so true. I have allowed so many days and nights to be ruined because of an insignificant issue. I decided I was going to break my pattern, or at least try to.
I did wake up bright and early on Christmas Eve (4:30 AM to be exact) and logged into my office. I worked for about two hours, but then I closed up the computer and decided to stay in the moment. We have friends visiting from Florida. They were talking their kids ice skating and bowling. I have always wanted to skate but never really did.
Well that changed! I skated for the first time on Christmas Eve. I bowled and I got two strikes and countless gutter balls. I ate White Castle for the first time (although I wish that part I skipped). The day flew by and was filled with laughter and fun. And I did the unthinkable for me. Not only did I not check my phone constantly for emails and messages I left my phone home….
Do you work on your days off?